I'll remember

is there a time in your life that when you feel like everything happens so fast. that you just wanted to stop and give time for yourself. give time for your loved ones. that when you feel like giving up when something bad happens. when you feel like you're getting nowhere. when everyone seems leaving. when you feel like doing something else. when you feel like living in another place. but it scares you like hell when you think about it. i hate changes. i never liked it.
siguro im in that moment when it feels like change is something big that i wanted to pursue but as i said it scares the hell out of me.

another friend is leaving for Canada in a few days from now. it makes me sad to think that i finally found the love of my life and at the same time i think i lost a friend. more likely you know what i mean about that. i miss her. i miss our crazy adventures. i miss being with her. i just hate when someone says goodbye. as mayang said...no goodbyes just see you later. even how you put it...i just hate when someone leaves. like i always tell my friend, Tracy(who's been in the States for years) i just received an email from a colleague who's gonna be transferred to another account. the message was very sincere and touching...

Karla: meaning “man”; feminine form of German Karl
When force is necessary, it must be applied boldly, decisively and completely. But one must know the limitations of force; one must know when to blend force with a maneuver, the blow with an agreement. --- Leon Trotsky

--thanks nina!

And another news that i just received...ive had this feeling since he called last night but i wasnt home and i wasnt able to ask what was bothering him. i just texted him this morning and he said that it got nothing to do with his lovelife its about work...its confirmed Jong is resigning effective immediately. the offer was just too good to be true...too good to resist. of course no one can blame him for that. a person would always want growth...and its very timely.

im gonna miss you lei. nothings changed im still the same old kalay that you know. im gonna miss nina thou. but jong, you know ill always here for you. but you know how much im gonna miss our coffee talks...and out gimiks...and our chismisans...i hope you'll still remember...ill be. i love you!

"...everything comes to an end, we all know that. but what we seldom realize is that endings can be so beautiful. that's how "happily ever after" is - a beautiful ending..."