me first...

i know it sounds selfish. siguro i should put it God First. heheh! my friends knew that ever since i had isha i became un-selfish. kung dati its me first it became isha first. i loved it. no doubts about it. id rather get something for her than for myself. well, the other week my mom was sick and i told her to have herself checked at healthway at the block. later that afternoon before leaving for work my mom gave me a leaflet for fitness first. argg..i know its about time. i think its now or never. backtrack few months ago nikki and i checked the place at the block and we loved it but decided to delay it since we know we got bills to pay. well...my mom paid for it. didnt have much of a choice. thanks pa den! im not getting any younger i know that and becoming more sick...i think. or maybe its my work...i dont know. as far as i can remember hindi naman talaga ako sakitin but after ABS un na. more prone na ako sa sakit. achu! moving forward. started to go to gym last sunday met my instructor albert. he's nice. okay naman. sorry geli he's not the macho uber-licious trainor that you've imagined...hehe! went to gym again monday afternoon and he made me realize how much i wanted to do that. how much i wanted to go back to my 27-28 waist line and my 120-125 lbs pre-pregnancy vitals. i know having the baby should not be an excuse but never had a choice after the CS i had. im used to starve myself to death just to loose weight but during the pregnancy i realized that i need to eat not just to make me healthy but its more to make the baby healthy. call it un-selfish but maybe when you become a parent yourself you'll understand my point. like as albert said it numbers doesnt matter...i know our goal is to go back to the original size but our goal is more on health...on being healthy.im marking this day...start counting. hehe! need to go back to gym tomorrow. sabi ko na eh. kakaadikan ko to!

today is 3.

im sorry. i was so tired i almost forgot about it. aminin mo ikaw den. nawala sa isip mo na 3 na. hehe! i love you and it wont change a thing. i love you more and more each day. thank you for everything.