its been awhile since i last blog. been very busy at work lately. wow something new...for a month i was the focal for the team. creating RAS and stuffs kaya no time to blog, surf the net or sleep. actually my last day was last friday. today im back taking in calls. if given a choice id rather taken in calls.
last week i recvd this message from an unknown number says..."lalay, im leaving soon" as soon as i read it i knew whom it was from.
Jonah,
here we go again. you know i hate saying goodbyes. im never good at it. i think im never gonna be good at it. honestly, when i read your message i know im suppose to be happy...but i was not. my world fell apart. it seems like history repeats itself. i felt almost the same when Tracy left but this time its different. been crying for days already but i know i have to be strong for us. we've known each other since God knows when...ako nga i couldnt remember the first day we met eh. basta ang alam ko elem pa un. sometime in grade 1 or 2 or maybe prep. asus un na yun! we only got close when we were in high school na. You, Tracy, Rizza and i...we're totally inseperable. like i told Chie i remember our morning rituals ang aga-aga chismisan. pag break na hintayan sa hallway. lunch was the most fun of them all. kakain tayo dun sa manila bay (well, that's what we call that stage in front of the court) and as usual chismis to the max na naman. pag uwian na...palabok, mango juice at choco stick ba un? basta ung banana na may chocolate na nilagay nila sa freezer kila mommy. it was the best. i remember lsgh...cue. haha! boys! its good to know we share the same stuffs...same interest...same passion. music, theater and boys. hahah! joke! kaya super excited ako when i found out that we're going to the same school in college...the same course pa. there was a time na something or rather someone was keeping us apart. yup we've been thru our "away" moments but we get along so well that both believe we're soulmates. i really think we are. that's something they dont know. i remember back when i was working in ABS. sobrang i have no time meeting up with my friends and you were the only person i could reach at those times. sa iyo ko lang nahihinga lahat ng sama ko ng loob and besides you were my only friend na ginagawang back up ng mga boys who were courting me. remember Wacky days? that was August 16, 1999...yuck antagal na...back in scout's office. Wacky was nearly kneeling for 15 minutes at di pa den ako sumasagot. at ikaw taga buyo...hahah! same screnario but this time no kneeling ekek...Coffee Bean...September 3, 2005 you were there when Nikki popped the question. i hate you! haha! alam mong hindi ako makakatanggi sayo. sobrang mahal na mahal kita Joning. honestly, i dont know if i can make it without you. you've has been my strength ever since. looking back at those times na i thought i was not gonna survive. back at those times na i thought as if everyone was just against me. those time i thought no one cares...you were there. you were always there and no amount of money and love can surpass that. if id be given a chance to change something in my life...i wont change a thing. as long as i know i have you im gonna be okay. sobrang hirap nito for me. while writing this...i couldnt stop crying. like what we always say buti pa dati...life's so simple. we only think about our baon and our crushes...now we need to think not only our future but our kid's future. if only i could stop time, dear...i love you so much. till we meet again, bestfriend...
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