Christmas once again...haay. Bakit ba emotional ako pag christmas? I DONT KNOW! I am happy. pero ewan ko ba. Another christmas that I have to spend at work and away again from Isha. Im getting used to it. Ayoko. While writing this...Isha left again with parents plus Fiona on their way back to Tarlac and wont be back "again" till monday. Haay. this is gonna be a looong weekend. I feel bad. Because I make it sure that we're together ng christmas day. This day is so important for me. Kahit hindi na ung christmas eve. But this year...no. Well, as I said. I didnt wanna get into any fight with the 'rents kaya bigay hilig na lang.
Received a text from my bestfriend, Carlo:
"Hey Kalay. Dad's reiterating his offer to work in Pampanga again. :) Competitive salary, you'll be the arts director. And both you and Isha can study. Long term contract for stability."
Here we go again. Is this another crossroad to take? I am enjoying life now. God know how much I hate change. I can always adapt to it but it takes a lot of effort and strength. Im enjoying my work now. You know that, Bro. I dunno if I am ready to let go. You know that I always go for what makes me happy. Self-fulfillment. Self-satisfaction. Is this the life that I wanna be in? Yes, I do. But how can you say no to that offer? Right? May I can. Again. I dunno. I always go for a simple-"ier" life. Kaya nga siguro I really dont want a higher position. Not that I dont wanna "grow" pero when you're a mom, you'd rather spend that extra hours with the kid rather than work. Thou, it doesnt apply na nga now kasi I do OT na! Well, not everyday kaya ok lang naman. At least when I get home I dont have to think about work.
Nakakastress ito! Please just take me outta here, someone? I just wanna go out...ayokong mag-isip. Ayokong ma-stress. Optimism always works, Kalay! Say it with me :)
...will post the xmas pics from work later. will rest for now...
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